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This is all going to make me sound like a damn cry baby, and a quitter, but what the hell.
I’m writing this on a Sunday morning Aug 28th 2016…after finishing a 5th of rum last night, then polishing it off this morning. My addiction to alcohol is out of control. I have been under the influence for roughly 15 years. It is ruining not only my health, but my financial life as well. I have gained 45 pounds in the last 5 years and have several ailments that I’ve neglected…and could care less about fixing. I was once a vibrant healthy person who took pride in his appearence who had goals. I am now fat, bloated and have become somewhat recluse. It is ruining my digestive tract as well…continual problems with bloat and gas. My liver enzymes are abnormal and the doctor seems very concerned.
This addiction is ruining my relationships,not only with my family, but friends and my girlfriend.
I’ve been faking my life and how well I am doing to others around me. My skills as a carpenter and entertainer are still there…however, I stuggle to just get through my day without my crutch that IS alcohol.
I find my craving out of control and will spend my last dollar and go broke to just have it. I do not overeat and stay away from sweets. The main reason for my weight gain is calories from the alcohol. I have won the lottery for not getting a DUI so far, but I feel my luck is running out.
I am hoping others will see my current picture and compare it to the one I have posted from only 6 years ago. I have become an ugly mess and struggle to merely tie my shoes. I was once 170 pounds of solid muscle…now I am 215 and find my knees struggling to not go out. I have lived in a 5th wheel in a crappy RV park for 5 years now. It’s truely disgusting. I’ve never lived like this before!
I figure I could get my life back if only I could kick this addiction for good.
Schick Shadel Hospital seems like their success rate is high for rehabilitating people. Their fee may seem high, but a 10 day in patient treatment seems to do the trick for a high percentage of patients.
https://www.gofundme.com/2m2nynw5

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